Sorry I was gone for so long guys, my internet was out as I was moving and for a while after and updating from other places was too much trouble. Anyway, here's a post.
Post 263.
I don't think I really understand you and I can't see why I'd ever want to.
Sometimes I wonder if I really did love you. Or maybe I just loved what I thought you were, what I merely wanted you to be. I was so blind, I couldn't open my eyes and see the truth of what you really were. And maybe if I did see you for what you were, I wouldn't have loved you as much as I did.
I've fallen victim to my greatest fear. The calendar marks that I lost a whole year. Three-sixty-five, barely alive. Grace took her good natured time to arrive.
In the meadow where the black breeze blows, where underneath the waves, you were most alone. Can you hear a subtle, aching tone?
Part of me wishes we were like goldfish. They only have a 3-second memory. That way I would never remember who you were or what you did to me. You’d just be this person I kept seeing, but never knew.
It’s four in the morning and I’m turning in my bed. I wish I had a dream or a nightmare in my head so I drop my imagination and get some sleeping done. Now it’s five in the morning and I’m wishing it was one.
You give me miles and miles of mountains and I asked for the sea.
I tried to tell you before I left but I was screaming under my breath You are the only thing that makes sense; just ignore all this present tense. -Snow Patrol
I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors but I think that God has a sick sense of humor. And when I die, I expect to find him laughing.
Hearts falling like kites on a windless day You bring me up so I'm flying high and let me plummet until I hit a solid ground, wishing we could be together without the crash and burn.
“Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.” - Mark Twain
I hope this makes you happy now that the flame we had is burning out.
POLL: Are you truly happy? Happy meaning what it means, not completely content with your life, but happy?
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.
I can see you in my dreams, sprawled out in the middle of your type-written pages, higher than the sun. And I see you alone; lonely and with me. There is nothing we can say to connect, no need for verbs. I can see you so long ago, cigarette burns in your shirt on the corner of High and Washington. And so I came to rely on nicotine and miscellaneous thoughts for company. Come to my bathroom, where you can powder your nose and wallow on the linoleum.
And on a day like this, it's the drugs that make it colorful. And on a day like this, it's the drinks that make it wonderful.
I don't want to be your regret, I'd rather be your cocoon.
People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know. -Chuck Klosterman
I've got to medicate myself, I'm not concerned about my health. It covers up what I've been dealt, it seems the only way.
I don't wanna live like my mother. I don't wanna let fear rule my life. And I don't wanna live like my father. I don't wanna give up before I die.
I had a lengthy discussion about the power of myths with a post-modern author who didn't exist. In this fictitious world all reality twists. I was a hopeless romantic; now I'm just turning tricks.
When I hear beautiful music, it's always from another time. Old friends I never visit, I remember what they're like. Standing on a doorstep full of nervous butterflies, waiting to be asked to come inside, just come inside.
"How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these." - George Washington Carver
You're the ones that kill your babies, you're the ones that fuck your kids. You're the ones that throw each other away, yeah. You're the ones sitting in church every Sunday.
Someday I will find the courage to embrace you. Someday I will find the strength to erase you.
POLL: Have you ever dreamed something and had it come true? Was it a good dream, or a nightmare of sorts?
Yes, and it was the most amazing thing in the world.
Here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to start posting a song on each entry so those of you who want to download new music, they can. I'll try my best to post songs not everyone knows, but I'm just going to focus on mainly what songs are making me happy right now.
Today's song is Overwhelming by Everclear. It's my all time favorite song; the meaning behind it is very, very amazing and I've never found lyrics I can relate to so immensely; I hope it's something you guys can relate to, also. I'm getting the lyrics tattooed on me soon, its so important to me.
Post 262.
"Everyone should believe in something; I believe I'll have another drink." -Unknown
"I have had just about all I can take of myself." -S.N. Behrman, on reaching the age of 75.
"There's no money in poetry, but then there is no poetry in money, either." -Robert Graves
"The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits." -Unknown
"The only reason some people can get lost in thought is that it's unfamiliar territory." -Paul Fix
A super villain in a trench coat, posing as a hero, tries to sell us an anti-revolutionary dream. Have you ever taken the time to find your favorite star? Have you ever wondered who you really are? Have you ever seen through all of my shit?
If I've scared you lately, please don't think I'm crazy. You're the one that I was getting used to. But now you're gone and I don't know what went wrong. It's funny how I never even knew you. And it's okay, I'll be fine.
So goddamn easy to write this, you make it spill off the page. So drunk on yourself, self-righteous. A laughing stock of your own fucking stage.
And I don't want to do this anymore.
So put me on a list with the disappointed; that list is getting long and you know I know I'm not the only one.
Please stop the car, I'm feeling sick and I won't make this trip without you. I've come a long, long way from home I've come a long, long way for you and I'm not leaving here alone.
You'll dream about somewhere A smoke will fill the air as I lay awake and wait for you to walk out that door I can change I can change I can change but who do you want me to be? I'm the same I'm the same I'm the same What do you want me to be? -Foo Fighters
"I like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me." -Fred Allen
"I am not afraid of death, I just don't want to be there when it happens." -Woody Allen
I want to draw something that means something to someone. You know, I want to draw blind faith or a fading summer, or just a moment of clarity. It's like, when you go and see a really great band, live for the first time and, you know, and nobody's sayi ng it, but everybody's thinking it, we have something to believe in again. I want to draw that feeling, but I can't. And if I can't be great at it, then I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me.
You put on a good show but I'd be willing to bet that you're suffering more than you let anyone see.
"The average pencil is seven inches long, with just a half-inch eraser - in case you thought optimism was dead." - Robert Brault
"Why do you always study?" I ask. "It's bad for your eyes." "Don't you want to go to college?" he asks. "You're crazy if you don't." I tell him he's the one who's crazy, always worried about his books. "I have to study or I'll never get out of this place," he says. That is an answer I can understand.
Wait. I'll be swifter than the speed of light, carbon my body a billion years of time. You wake with the stitches over both your eyes, and deny me my body and all earthly delights.
Come home, you've been gone too long. I hear you walking like a tired dog, all alone in the wild untamed, a fading face in the picture frame.
Someone send me an angel to love, I'm afraid I'll never get to heaven. -Garbage
I'm down on my knees I'm begging you please, to come home. Come on home. -Simon & Garfunkel
And it won't be very long 'till I'm going, going, gone. And it won't be very long 'till I'm going, going, gone. And is there something really wrong with me now? -The Posies
"The chicken probably came before the egg because it's hard to imagine God wanting to sit on an egg." -Unknown
You know how you're watching a movie, and you kind of already know how it's gonna end, but you watch it anyway, just because? Well, that's how it was with you. I knew it was only a matter of time, that it was gonna come out sooner or later. I knew how it was going to end. But I went on with it. I kept feeling the way I did because as selfish as it sounds it made me happy. You made me happy. Now though.. you're gone, and I have no-one to turn to. Would I take it all back if I had the chance? Yes, I would. If I could do it all over again I'd wish never to have met you at all. Because no matter how happy I was at the time, in the end all you left me with was pain.
[2.]
I always thought you'd come back. I thought that we would always be, well, us. We'd say some things, you would leave but you'd always come around. You always did. But this time.. this time you turned your back and left, with not even a glance back at the mess you left behind. This time it was different. You never came back. And well as much as I hate to admit it I miss you. Look at what you've done.
[3.]
Ever felt alone? I mean sure there are so many people out there who love and care for you, but have you ever stopped, looked out at everyone around you and just felt... alone? Ever longed for something just out of your reach, something that was once so close within your touch; ever wanted something you knew was, is, and never will be, yours?
[4.]
I wrote you a letter. I spilled it all, pen to paper, no regrets. But I never gave it to you. Because I realized that nothing I could ever say would bring you back to me. Because, you can't make someone care when they don't. You can't force a feeling; you can't make someone stay when all they want to do is leave.
[5.]
She had a history of killing herself, I had a habit of dying. I think she gave me something to live for, I guess I helped her pass time.
[6.] Not sure who you wanna be, you're daddy's little drama queen. I hope that when you find yourself, you're more than just a baby doll.
[7.] Some days go by, I wish I was famous or maybe religious, so I could go to heaven.
[8.] It is soon you will die, and angels don't take bribes.
[9.] Well excuse me, 'cause I've mistaken you for somebody else. Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself. And these foolish games are tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart. And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
[10.] You're the reason why I'm thinking. I don't want to smoke all these cigarettes no more. I guess this is what I get for wishful thinking.
[11.] Well I'd like to think I'm the mess you'd wear with pride. Like some empty dress on the bed you've laid out for tonight. Maybe I'll tell you sometime.
[12.] Tonight with words unspoken, you say that I'm the only one. But will my heart be broken when the night meets the morning sun? I'd like to know that your love is the love I can be sure of. So tell me now and I won't ask again; will you still love me tomorrow?
[13.] I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long. -Armor For Sleep
[14.] Heaven, please send, to all mankind, understanding and peace of mind. But if it's not asking too much, please send me someone to love.
[15.] I wish it were simple but we give up easily. It’s clear enough to see that you’re on the other side of the world to me.
[16.] I think I've found my new addiction tonight. Your phone call left me paralyzed the pureness of it all and then your siren began to sing. I know this may be redundant but I think I've found my other half; I swear I've found my better half.
[17.] Every once in a while I see you look at me like you used to.
[18.] There have been a few things I've been meaning to let go of tonight.
[19.] Well, you're more beautiful than ever, looking in the car's rear view mirror. You're more beautiful than ever, miles, miles away.
[20.] "It was...the difference between being dragged into the arena to face a battle to the death and walking into the arena with your head held high. Some people perhaps would say that there was little to choose between the two ways.. but [he] knew...that there was all the difference in the world." - Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
What were your favorite toys as a kid?
Mine were polly pockets and barbies. Also, my figurines of the Spice Girls. xD
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