Post 263.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.

I can see you in my dreams, sprawled out in the middle of your type-written pages, higher than the sun. And I see you alone; lonely and with me. There is nothing we can say to connect, no need for verbs. I can see you so long ago, cigarette burns in your shirt on the corner of High and Washington. And so I came to rely on nicotine and miscellaneous thoughts for company. Come to my bathroom, where you can powder your nose and wallow on the linoleum.

And on a day like this, it's the drugs that make it colorful.
And on a day like this, it's the drinks that make it wonderful.

I don't want to be your regret, I'd rather be your cocoon.

People don't keep journals for themselves.
They keep them for other people, like a secret
they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know.
-Chuck Klosterman

I've got to medicate myself, I'm not concerned about my health. It covers up what I've been dealt, it seems the only way.




I don't wanna live like my mother. I don't wanna let fear rule my life. And I don't wanna live like my father. I don't wanna give up before I die.

I had a lengthy discussion about the power of myths with a post-modern author who didn't exist. In this fictitious world all reality twists. I was a hopeless romantic; now I'm just turning tricks.

When I hear beautiful music, it's always from another time. Old friends I never visit, I remember what they're like. Standing on a doorstep full of nervous butterflies, waiting to be asked to come inside, just come inside.

"How far you go in life depends on your being tender
with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak
and strong. Because someday in
your life you will have been all of these."
- George Washington Carver

You're the ones that kill your babies,
you're the ones that fuck your kids.
You're the ones that throw each other away, yeah.
You're the ones sitting in church every Sunday.

Someday I will find the courage to embrace you.
Someday I will find the strength to erase you.

 


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